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Name: jaclyn
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Laguna Beach
Birthday: 10/15/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: losing weight, old hollywood, chanel, working out, swimming, water polo, life guarding, fashion, marilyn monroe, giselle bundchen, everyone thin
Expertise: asshole guys
Occupation: Other
Industry: Medical
Message: message me
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Member Since:
7/21/2005
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| CW- 118.8 lbs
holy fucking shit. did i really get down to 118?!!!!! this is amazing. i never thought i would ever be back down to 118 in my life. i remember when i was at 174 lbs. i will never ever let myself get that fat again in my life. i think i could lose weight now, so imagine how fat i must have been then. now its going to be hard maintaining this, but i can do it. i've been trying to be positive lately and no joke it actually works. i feel like i can do anything. good luck to everyone else!! we can all do this together!
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| CW- 120.0 lbs.
i have gotten down to my goal weight. 120 lbs. and the other day i was 119. now 118 would be fabulous, but im happy. i can't believe i finally did it. now the hard part is going to be keeping it off. my mom knows that i am throwing up now, she says i need professional help. but fuck that shit. i dont need help. i am going to try and stop this on my own. i am just going to not eat. well only really really healthy and like 200 cals a day or something. and please you think any of these models/celebrities dont all have eating disorders? they do. it doesnt make it right but this is really bad but i think it's normal for a girl to worry about her weight.
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CW- 127.6 lbs
alright so tonight i get home at like 11:30 pm and usually my mom is asleep but she was actually just getting out of the shower which was weird. so i was like "hey mom can i get a quick shower?" ( i use the shower in her room because it's so much better and has a better drain to throw up my food) and she's like "why?" all suspicious and whatnot, she's out to catch me in a lie or something. and i was like "because i just got home from disneyland and feel really gross" so i get my shower and puke up the little that i ate. ok so i was feeling really good. then i go to my little bathroom next to my room and was brushing my teeth, and i was naked, but i coughed like once or twice because i had to fucking cough. and my mom walks in on me!!!!! she just fucking walked right in on me and looked at the toilet and then at my naked body. like trying to catch me throwing up or something. thank god i was just brushing my teeth!@!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so she was listening outside of the bathroom door. so then i walk out and yell at her that i have no privacy and want to move out. and make her feel guilty and now she hopefully will think that i dont throw up the little that i do eat now.
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| CW- 127.6 lbs
alright so i guess it's not that bad considering i drank a shit load tonight, which is so much water weight. so tomorrow i know i have to eat a little sushi because im going out to lunch with my friend, i really dont even want to go and i think i may cancel. lately i have not been wanting to hang out with anyone other then my best friend because she has the same food/eating problem as me. it's like we've become loners to every girl other then ourselves. i mean we still hang out with guys all the time but we really dont hang out with girls anymore. i just hate having to be fake all the time and pretend that nothing is wrong, when obviously something is wrong. i hate having to say "im doing well" when people ask how im doing. it's such a false front its scary. | | |
| alright so i got down to 129 lbs. i was so stoked! but now im back at 130. fuck me. i know it's only 1 lb, but it seems like so much. my ultimate goal is 118 lbs, that would be so rad. except ill prob just want to lose more once i get down to that. me and my friend took pics for myspace (lame i know, we were bored) and actually i dont' want to toot my own horn ,but we look pretty fucking hot. ha. i just need to lose like 10 lbs asap. i know i could seriously probably do that in about a week if i just drank water. well anyone could do that. but that's fucking hard. everynight i go to bed thinking that i wont eat anything the next day, and then when i wake up, the first thought that comes to my head is "what can i eat today and throw up without my mom noticing?" it's so bad. but honestly it works. i've lost 47 lbs since october
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